WAITING HAS ITS POINT IN EVERYTHING

after we have decided to move on with our lives apart from each other, life has been so different. life has been so easy, so light, so peace and quiet, so calm, so ordinary. i didn't seem to miss those hands that hold mine, the warmth that i get from his hug. everything seems so normal again. there are times when i caught myself surprised that once upon a time there was a somebody who used to be my "boyfriend". i got too attached with my singleness now and have been comfortable with it. i'm totally happy right now knowing that i don't have to bother with heartaches and shallow-petty arguments. i don't need to explain myself anymore and ask for permission aside from the approval from my parents. i never felt more complete than ever. i realized that it's wrong to tell my special someone that he is the "missing piece" in my life because ever since i was born, i am already made complete. I WAS MADE COMPLETE! i lacked nothing! but just like adam, it is not good for man to be alone.
so why i have been so mushy all of a sudden?!
i read a blog note that was linked on my crush's facebook account. the note was so simple yet it is so complex. i liked the idea that it is from a guy's point of view. it sounds sarcastic at first though in the end he made himself thoughtful.

lahat ng tao may pointA at pointB

babae man o lalake.

ang pointA ang kinaroroonan mo

ang pointB naman ang pupuntahan.

 bakit ako magaabala na samahan ka sa pointB mo,

kung masmalapit ang pointB KO?

 "malayo kaya ang bahay ko sa inyo."

 "gabi na kaya, baka maholdap ako."

 "boring kaya ang byahe pabalik."

 kapag bumaba na 'ko sa pointB 'ko...

sino mahal ko? ikaw ba o ako?

 tssss.

 kaya namin kayo hinahatid simula pointA

papuntang pointB...

 kasi.

gusto naming maramdaman nyong mahal namin kayo.

at gusto naming maramdaman na mahal nyo kami :)

 kahit malayo.

kahit mahal.

kahit gabi na.

kahit boring.

 sana nga matraffic yung sinasakyan natin eh :)

 gusto lang naman namin malaman nyo na kaya namin kayong mahalin...

mula point A to B.

i find this sweet especially coming from a guy. i mean it is so unusual for a guy to make a blog or to even write things like this since some guys thought that they will lose their "macho" image. well for me, i think i will have to consider the person who wrote this as a TNL (TUNAY NA LALAKE / TRUE MAN). he is not afraid to show his fragile side and tell what he really meant. i mean he is so honest.

i will certainly wait for this kind of man. the man that God has made for me. this time everything will be right. i won't let past mistakes to happen again. i won't ditch what i learned through everything i've been through. 

i will certainly make myself worthy for that man! 

ang hirap naman kasi magdecide! sino ba ang gusto maging torn?!!!

Being Liked Unbolt Existence

i'm happy to meet someone whom i never expected to come. but of course, i always have to remember my limits since he is a he.